Tuesday, June 12, 2007

Another Step Closer to Moving

I gave my resignation yesterday. My final day at work is July 27th. I can't believe that in a little over a month I will be moving. I am starting to freak out. There are so many thoughts flying threw my brain about this move.

I can't wait to get into a house that I can actually decorate and make my own.

I can't wait to be THE mom of the house and not a daughter with a son.

I can't wait to be able to go grocery shopping and not worry about Munchkin's snacks disappearing before he gets to eat them.

I can't wait to display what a wonderful wife I will make LD.

I can't wait to actually feel grown up and not dependent on my parents.

I can't wait to be able to go to bed and turn over to tell LD good night in person every evening.

However............

I don't want to have to look for a new job.

I don't want to have to make new friends.

I don't want to have to drive 10 minutes just to visit a neighbor.

I don't want to have to either shop on line, wait until I am back in St. Louis, or buy all my stuff at Wal-mart.

I don't want to have to prove to people that I can live in the country. I am tougher than I look.

I don't want to worry about Munchkin fitting in and making new friends.

I don't want to worry about a Tornado flying through our area and not knowing it until it is too late. (I have a huge fear of Tornadoes and there are no sirens there to warn us. One of my necessary purchases before moving will be a weather alert radio.)

I don't want to have to live in a house full of tension with The Joes.

All of this stuff is giving me mixed feelings about the move. At times I just want to tell LD that I am not coming, but I promised I would give it a try for a year. I hope it works and I can handle all the change because if I can't our long distance bill will be sky high and I will be on the Internet all the freaking time. I will probably also be making multiple trips home to visit St. Louis and remind myself that there is civilization out there and to visit Target, of course.

5 comments:

Lisa said...

Gah. Maybe we can get something together before you leave. A "last hurrah" for ya of sorts. Let me know what dates you are free (July-ish) and we can go from there.

Lisa said...

P.S. Our conversation about mancrafts sparked some inspiration for a post.... Its up now if you are interested. (My dad is an avid mancrafter.) :-)

tiffany said...

what an exciting time.
oh, and the weather-radio-thing?
get it.
otherwise, i'll have to worry about you too. i'm DEATHLY afraid of tornadoes. in fact, i may have to take a xanax just thinking about this.

Dana said...

I am so going to be watching how this unfolds instead of watching television. I think you'll do well. Tell Mrs. Joe that you're the boss. Like Kelis.

Mmm. Last hurrah martinis.

weatherchazer said...

Target...I always have to drive a distance to get to one. Well, worth it. You'll do fine with the move. The country isn't bad (& I've lived in the city and the country and currently reside in the latter). you'll do great!